At the beginning of summer, I made something of a silent vow to get off my lazy butt and accomplish a lot this summer. Summer assignments? I'll get them done early so I can enjoy the rest of my summer in peace! Video projects? I got a ton of ideas bursting out of my head! Fun activities? Can't wait!
Looking back, I don't think I've managed to change much.
A little over a week left until school starts, and I'm still at square one. My homework is left buried under a pile of junk, just waiting for me to work on them. My notepad for ideas sits empty, a reminder of my seemingly endless writer's block. I've gone out few times this summer, and found myself at home a lot, either thinking of ways to get out someplace or watching anime from sunrise to sunset.
I hear my friends talk about all the places they've gone, the things they've seen, the people they've met, the stuff they did. I can't help but feel envious. Why is it everyone seems to be in control of their lives when I can barely manage mine? I'm just here...going with the flow, but not knowing where that flow takes me. For the moment, Band Camp has thankfully kept me productive. But will it be enough? The days are slipping by faster than I imagined.
I've decided, it's time for initiative. It's my last year of high school. Possibly the last time in my life I'll be around such familiar faces, doing all the fun things we wanted. This shouldn't be a time of regrets, it should be a time of memories! With the few of you watching my blog, I promise you that I'm going to make the most of our last year together! *Epiphany from writing this blog*
That's it for today. Squad dismissed!
"That's what SHE said!"
I hardly feel in control of my future. I just do what I feel is right and hope for the best. I usually have no idea where I'm going, but I think that as long as I try my best, it's hard to go wrong.
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